I have just finished ripping my story apart on paper. I have a few small books that I have written and a lot more that I have started and stalled on.
I love the creation involved in the first draft process. That "Aha!" moment when a key plot point explodes in my brain is a major high. My husband often looks at me like I am crazy when I run for the notebook like it contains the last of the earth's chocolate during a PMS epidemic. But putting those words to paper are a major high.
Then I start editing. And I have to throw away big chunks of that "Aha!" moment because in the light of the continuity of my book, they don't work anymore. I have a binder that is slashed apart with big cuts and rewrites, where I swear I must have been falling asleep at the computer.
But the best part of tearing apart this book is it lead me to a major plot point struggle I was having with the final book in this novella trilogy. I wrote it down on my big blank notebook of inspiration and just like that I am excited to get started on the next round.
So, I will continue to fight the battle of tearing this book apart. And have a cool drink as I work through the impressive number of sex scenes I have worked into a 35k novella. Werewolves are horny little devils. :)